may i never lose my youth and if i do may i be forgettable..

sitting at work, bored, waiting to enrol business students isn't exactly how i want to be spending the next two hours. it's not really how i would of chosen to spend any evening of my summer really. alas money talks as 'they' say so every day i brave the hordes for my £7.54 an hour. it feels more than a little strange that i earn the same as my mother, who is a teaching assistant at a pupil referral unit (centre for kids who have been kicked out of one school and are in the process of being found another school who'll take them...a sort of educational purgatory i guess.) she works damn hard and all i really do..all i actually do, is sit behind a computer enrolling students and occasionally having to answer phones. there are several things wrong with the fact that we earn the same wage, but i try not to think about it as at the end of the day i really do need the money. that's a pretty sad enditement of the society we live in if ever i heard one.

in the last few weeks i've read both the subterraneans and big sur by jack kerouac. the former is widely regarded as his 'spontaneous prose' style at it's best/worst (delete depending on how you find it) and although hard going in the middle section, was another amazing kerouac work. the blurb on the back of my copy pretty much sums it up, " the tender and achingly poetic tale of a love affair"
since reading on the road, i've pretty much fallen in love with kerouac's style and i've yet to read a bad piece of work by him. i've read lots of reviews of on the road from older readers who say when they read it in the younger years in changed their life, etc, etc, but then went back to it recently and they saw the flaws in it. maybe this will happen to me who knows, maybe i will see dean moriarty's character as the unfaithful drunk that many others see, maybe i'll see all the other negative character traits in sal paradise and the others, but at this moment in time i still totally feel that this book really did open my eyes and change the way i see the world and make me yearn for adventure. surely this fact can never change even in years to come, no matter what my literary viewpoint then?



listen to the new ceremony record.

xo