alone at night i think about what i'd do...

the past week has been up and down. highlights have definitely been: set your goals/four year strong x2, lonewolves rehearsals, promo shots in a soviet concentration camp, laughing so hard i lose my breath while in leeds and lazy lazy sundays.

more and more the temptation is growing to just move away. i know i need to finish my course, but honestly the thought of going on to be a journalist right now doesn't appeal to me at all. but yet i have to pretend that it does to everyone at college otherwise i'll seem like a total drop out. although i guess if i go through with it that's what i'll be. maybe i'm over analysing again. i just really don't know that i want to carry on with the career path that i've previously thought about. if you know me this may sound weird, but a lot of things have happened recently that have made me take stock of where i am with my life and made me realise the importance of certain things. it's also made me think about things way too much. i know the amount i worry about certain things is way more than is necessary, but i can't really help it. i need to start planning for the summer big time. it's pretty much all i care about right now to be honest..


"I can see your disapproval
or maybe you just can’t relate
But this is what I live each day for
Won't go back! Had enough!

I can see your disappointment
when I see the look on your face
But I’ve just got to make my choices
No one else! Just for me!

Maybe you can't see!

I just can't fail forever
and some day I will set it straight
Taking chances to make things happen
for myself no one else but me!

We just can't fail forever!
and some day we will set it straight!
Taking chances to make things happen!
for ourselves; no one else but us!

This life, it's only for me
Hold back? I will never. I gotta break free
My bets have all been placed
so don't count me out!"


thank god for syg right now...............................