home is where the heart is, i live inside my head..

i never thought i'd get to the stage where people talk about what i've written on my blog behind my back. i mean obviously, as i have a link to this on my myspace page, it is reasonably likely that atleast someone will read it. it is equally as likely that some people who read it may think negatively about it. that is fine. for the most part i never realy consider who's reading this when i write the things i do. i never make a decison not to write something purely based on the fact that someone may read it and think bad of me. i don't really care that much. what kind of bugs me is people who read what i say, note it and then comment about it to people who i am pretty good friends with. i mean obviously, this is in the public domain, it's not like a private profile or anything...if i cared that much i wouldn't write stuff right? well yes, but the fact that some people think they can get the impression they 'know' me or have a clue what is happening in my life solely based on the crap i post here is a bit weird. i don't have the slightest problem with anyone who reads what i write and thinks "man that dude is a total self indulgent prick" but please don't say things like "well i read on his blog that he doesn't enjoy college, so that's why he's not in. he's probably not even ill."

for the record incase you're lurking now. i never said i was going to drop out, i merely said that i'm not enjoying aspects of my course. i may also be re-thinking what i want to do after i finish said course. this is a pretty normal process for a 21 year old student. if you have an opinion on it then cool, fine, whatever. i would honestly have more respect for you if you said to me, "oh so i couldn't help noticing that you're not enjoying the course. are you going to drop out?" then i could give you a straight answer. but tittle tattling to a friend about it is ridiculous.






in other news, the new death is not glamorous record is so so good. definitely a marked improvement from their last output. in my opinion this band are massively underrated and hopefully all the shows on the upcoming uk tour are awesome. i know i can't wait to see them in norwich next week. a band that totally makes me smile and think of summer and generally makes me feel good about life when i'm listening to them.

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