this will, almost certainly, be my home for four months starting from june 2009. i really cannot wait. i know everyone round here says how much they hate norwich and packs up and heads to leeds, but that's not my reason behind wanting to not be here. oh i know i am almost certainly going to leeds next year too so maybe that wasn't the most appropriate thing to say, but anyway...
there just come times in your life when i honestly feel everyone should get of where they live and experience the world outside of their insuler surroundings. i know i'm not originally from norwich, but i've been here long enough that it feels like a (second)home town and i've always been led to believe that getting out and seeing the world is what being a 'kid' is all about. i've been brought up in an environment that encourages travel and gaining new experiences so maybe i'm biased, but i honestly cannot imagine staying here for the rest of my life. i am not saying that people who choose to do that are in the wrong. whatver makes you happy, but i know that if i stay in one place any more i'll go insane. there is so so much in this world that i have never experienced. portland in june will be the first time i've ever been to america for example. i've never been to africa. i've never been to south america. i haven't even seen half of europe properly. i read books and look at websites about all the incredible things that are out there and i just want to leave now. it's not that i even really hate norwich. it just feels..almost stagnant i guess. i don't really go out to clibs or whatever but it's not like i'm some weird recluse who just stays in all the time. i do go out contrary to some popular opinion, i guess i'm just selective with what i do with my time. fuck that makes me sound like a dick. i just mean that recently i really have found out who my real friends are. actually that's not strictly true. the people i knew were my best friends have further proved this opinion to be true. i have however had conversations with people who are fast becoming equally as amazing friends and really are incredible people. even the little things are nice y'know?
i really want to read way more books about medievel history. i've always been kind of obsessed with certain aspects of the period, such as the knights templar, but i really want to immerse myself in it to an even greater degree. i'm reconsidering a lot of things in my life at the moment. well maybe a lot is a bit of an overstatement but i am totally thinking about what direction i want my life to go in. maybe the things i just assumed were given when it comes to a career path aren't so assured after all? i mean i know i'm only 21 so it's not as if i have to make the decision like tomorrow, but it's still an integral part of my life. decisions i make in the next few months could quite conceivably have an affect, however small, on the rest of my life. i guess though we are constantly making decisions that are going to affect our lives in the future. i guess it's the age old question of "what if???"
i wish i could just watch him play live every night for the rest of the year. fuck fuck fuck. sunday is actually still blowing my mind.
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